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Yezrel wrote:[...] I have high ethic standards and I am shocked about others with so less sense of responsibility. Perhaps they say so because they don´t know my family situation and what will happen if I wouldn´t take care of my family. The children need me. I want to give them a normal life. They shouldn´t undergo what I must go through.

I think they haven´t the faintest idea, because they haven´t children. - I hope my psychotherapist have not the same thoughts. He is father. My family doctor has three little children. I believe he can understand me better. - I want to maintain boundaries between my sister and me, not more.

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is not the same as Obsessive–Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD), but people with OCPD can also have OCD tendencies. Here a video about OCD:

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

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Now I have an own thread about my working blockades, look here.

My sister and my brother are instable personalities. My OCPD gives me the help to tolerate their wayward behavior. I´ve read an expert article about the family context between instable family members and the OCPD family members as a contrast. It´s not a contingency. I´ve learned to feel in the therapy but now I cannot tolerate the instable behavior of my sister and my brother. That´s the disadvantage for me. I want to have the therapy to be more efficient and not for suffering under my instable family members!

I´ve read about the positive sites of OCPD in a expert book. I should change only the negative aspects but better to accept OCPD and optimize the personality in a self-conscious way. I should not fight against OCPD but work with an aware OCPD.

Yezrel wrote:Günther Köhnlein, Phänomen Arbeitsstörungen (German edition)
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There are tables about the symptoms which come with an interruption of work. My fatigue could be a psychosomatic symptom of my internal protest.

I have read the pages 113-124 about the anankastic interruption of work. Good explanations about my problems. Anankastic behavior as a control method for coping with everyday life. Clear structures and focusing. Tunnel vision and rigidity as a method for finding clear structures and solutions and self-regulation. A case of a anankastic personality with somatoform symptoms and his key moment about the own pressure to perform and his false anankastic self-management with high energy overconsumption.

I´ve read this book at the end. The chapter about OCPD (113-125) and the summary chapter of theses against working blockades (177-180) I find especially helpful.

Yezrel wrote:I´ve read about the positive sites of OCPD in a expert book. I should change only the negative aspects but better to accept OCPD and optimize the personality in a self-conscious way. I should not fight against OCPD but work with an aware OCPD.

That´s I have read in this book! This is my key moment!

The Model -- Kraftwerk -- Female Android

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Yezrel wrote:I have learned some aspects about OCPD in OCPD forums and in contact with other OCPDer, especially tendencies for an intensive activity about the theme OCPD for a certain time and then the concentration for own projects. I see the same tendencies in my own development.

Yes, now. I have strong withdrawal tendencies. On these grounds I will move back to my own working website with internal blog. Better for my work.

Yezrel wrote:I´ve read about the positive sites of OCPD in a expert book. I should change only the negative aspects but better to accept OCPD and optimize the personality in a self-conscious way. I should not fight against OCPD but work with an aware OCPD.

My psychotherapist says the same.

Yezrel wrote:Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is not the same as Obsessive–Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD), but people with OCPD can also have OCD tendencies.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

That´s the reason for my working blockades. I´ve written an e-mail to my psychotherapist about this new aspect, an important part of my cognitive psychotherapy. Naturally my psychogenic pain has his role in this problematic situation.